Recently, I've shared with you many of the health issues I'm currently facing. There seems to be two camps in the blogging world (at least among mommy and women bloggers). Share your lives intimately, or keep many items private. When I first started blogging almost a year ago, I actually had two separate blogs. One was called "Real Moms Don't Wear Gucci" which was my attempt to blog about stay-at-home-moms and the disparity between reality and the products found in many "mommy" magazines that cost more than half our salary. Who spends $500 on a stroller? Besides Brittany Spears. The other blog was called "madmommy" which was to be a resource for moms with mental disorders, such as depression and bipolar disorder. The second came from my own frustration in the lack of information out there for parenting with bipolar. Then I read a book by Tracy Thompson called The Ghost in the House: Motherhood, Raising Children, and Struggling with Depression, which answered a lot of my questions. So I dropped the madmommy blog and renamed my current blog madmommy.
So I've struggled with whether or not to keep writing about all aspects of my life and realized that part of the therapeutic value of blogging is revealing myself to others, instead of wearing my mask of normalcy. Not to mention, this is one of the ways I stay in touch with family and friends who live a long ways away.
To update my situation, I've recently started seeing a new nurse practitioner whose specialty is psychiatry. I'm off the mood stabilizer I was taking for the last year, and on a different one without all the harmful side effects (such as massive weight gain, sleeplessness and/or exhaustion, severe tremors that made sewing nearly impossible). It is so wonderful to have someone who truly cares about giving me the best possible medical care and listens to my concerns.
So, in conclusion, I'm going to continue to talk about my health, because I feel a responsibility to those of you out there who might be going through the same thing and are looking for help, or maybe just need someone to talk to. Because you let me talk to you in this way, and I thank you.